MISCARRIAGE
Rewind to tomorrowSo I can suppress all the sorrow
You were my entire world
I finally felt complete
To know there was life
Growing inside of me
Your mommy and daddy were so happy
And we whispered to my belly
You were all we could talk about
We already had the names picked out
Six weeks along I was in heaven
Already anticipating your beautiful presence
I prayed to God for your safety
For you would be my miracle baby
I had complete faith in Him
Even with circumstances so grim
Doctors said my body was weak
Their outlook on us was so bleak
Despite the dreadful news
My feelings for you remained enthused
I could not wait to hold onto you
To show people miracles do come true
Your daddy told me if you were a girl
He would greet your boyfriends with a shotgun at the door
The thought of that
Only made me laugh
He said if we had twins
He was sure to have a heart attack
I know if you were a boy
Your daddy would be overjoyed
I think deep down he was secretly wishing
So he could take you hunting and fishing
Another counted week went by
As I continued to dream of you by my side
Dreaming down the days
When we could feel your sweet embrace
Thinking about you wrapped in our arms
Thinking about us always protecting you from harm
In month two
I desperately wanted to meet you
I woke up with my spirits high
Then looked down to see the darkened blood
Drenched in our sheets
Smeared between my thighs
The worst day of my life
I will never forget
How my entire life changed
Nothing would ever be the same
I guess for once the doctors were right
My body was too weak
My miracle baby did not survive
In loving memory of our precious baby.
© 2014 Valerie Lynn
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