Sunday, 17 May 2015

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, VACANT

 

VACANT

_____________________________

I have lived in secret
Through mind, body and soul
All alone in my self destructive world
Your hollow eyes seem to consume
Every part of me I long to be
_____________________________________


MALAYALAM TRANSLATION
OF THE ABOVE POEM





© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,PERSPECTIVE

PERSPECTIVE

In life there is death but in death there is life
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, OVERTAKEN

OVERTAKEN

You have defaced my emotions and raped me with pain
Letting the agony gradually drive me insane
My health now completely taken away
I have nothing left to fight for; nothing left to say
Hope no longer resides within me
Trapped in this forsaken place
Where I will never be set free
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, EVIL SINS

EVIL SINS

Follow the path paved with temptation 
For death will be your salvation 
It is through the power which destroys life 
Where we are born again as a sacrifice 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,INNOCENCE LOST

INNOCENCE LOST

The painful truth lurks behind
A single door across the hall
She stays awake at night
Haunted by the images forever imprinted in her mind
The nauseating stench of alcohol remains on his breath
As he arrives home from the bar eager to sneak into her bed
Her innocence corrupted by evil lies and a devilish smile
The promise made was to love her as his own child
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LIFE

LIFE

Cherish memories
Be thankful you are breathing
Accomplish your dreams 
© 2015 Valerie Lynn
Haiku (5-7-5)

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, WHY

WHY

I truly believe
You saw something
Something within me
That I was too blind to see
I felt as if my life
Was nothing
Nothing but a walking coma
Slowly slipping away
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, VOICES

VOICES

Outcast within his own home
The loneliness finally took a toll
Unable to escape his insecure delusions
Disease masked the trepidation
Each character played a different role
Formulated in his mind to fill the void
He gave in with ease as they took control
Mind over matter did not matter anymore
Anxiety building deep inside
Grinning as he watched his family die
The whispers he heard in his head that day
All told him it was better this way
Now the world would remember his name
Everyone would know his kind of pain
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES DEAR LOVE...

DEAR LOVE...

Without you
There would be no me
The moment I took a single glimpse
Into your bright blue eyes
Is when I realized it was you
Who would be mine for the rest of my life
You selflessly remained by my side
While I was confined to a hospital bed as we both cried
Your loving heart goes above and beyond anyone I know
I believe in all that you are and look forward to seeing our true love grow
© 2015 Valerie Lynn
Happy Birthday Baby!! I love you with all my heart J!!

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, TO MY COSMO FAMILY:

TO MY COSMO FAMILY:

Little did I know
When I first signed up for Cosmo
That my life would drastically change
All because of you
I had put my writing on hold for over 16 years and never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that my crazy thoughts would be accepted by people here on this amazing site. I feel so blessed to have met so many unique, creative and talented individuals with such caring and genuinely friendly, sweet, and thoughtful personalities. If you are reading this and think to yourself this does not apply to me; well it does. Writing has been my therapy for the past year and a half. It has been a way for me to express myself without feeling judged. I want to thank each and every one of you for your loving words of encouragement. Your unwavering support means more to me than you will ever know. I want to thank all of you whom I am able to proudly call my Cosmo Family. Without even realizing it you have been there for me through thick and thin. I cannot begin to express my gratitude to each and every one of you. I honestly don't know where I would be without you in my life.
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,SILENT GOODBYE

SILENT GOODBYE

The purple sunset beyond the horizon
Is tangled within the beautiful darkness
Thinking about you and me
In this silence
Embracing the moments
Before we leave
Awaiting our arrival tonight
Is one final slumber
As we rest in peace together
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERI LYNN WRITES, MY CURSE

MY CURSE

As yesterday creeps into tomorrow
Happiness is littered with sorrow
Love remains laced in hate
Pleasure always spiked with pain
Lying in a hospital bed
Secretly wishing for an end
I cannot erase my past
I cannot escape the fact
That death is hunting me
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, JUST A THOUGHT

JUST A THOUGHT

The tears from the pain
Won't ever go away
Will they?
I imagined you would be
The one to save me
Why does suicide have to be a sin?
I guess this time
God, you win
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,ONE LAST TIME

ONE LAST TIME

So lonely
Please come hold me
My love
One last time
Before you destroy my life
The grip on my throat becomes too tight
So you loosen it for your pleasure
As you think you are so clever
When the sick sadistic side takes over
I assume this will be our final closure
Well goodbye then is all I can mutter
As you push my head under water
Only I refuse to leave this world
Without a fight
So I kick and scream with all my might
The scratches will leave the evidence I need
To put you away forever
Goodbye my love are the last words I breathe
As I stare while you look down at me

© 2003 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,SEALED FATE

SEALED FATE

Violently shattered
You are nothing but a single shard of glass
Invisible to the naked eye; I see right through you
Relentlessly unwilling to witness
The destruction you have summoned
No empathy
For the ones who truly loved you
Now they have moved on, all gone
Yet you continue to burn all bridges
Praying for a divergent outcome
Come on
Keep hittin the bottle, baby
For you, alcohol is the only cure
I wish I could save you but I am sorry
I cannot even save myself at this point
Drifted away
Reality no longer courses through your veins
Memories erased, hindered by intoxicants
In your surreal realm you and you alone
Sealed your fate years ago
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,TOXIC TEMPTATION

TOXIC TEMPTATION

I inhale you like the toxins
From a poisonous addiction
The temptation I can never replace
I breathe you in for another taste
My only last hope washes away
In the thought of being with you one more day
There is a constant change in the way you maintain
Your control over me along the way
Dragging me in deeper; making me even weaker  
So without hesitation
I give in and enjoy the suffocation

© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,ASHES

ASHES

I keep finding myself
Fighting the urge
To submerge my head
In the ashes
Of the body you
Left me with

© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, OBSESSED

OBSESSED

Morphed into your twisted obsession
You drained the blood from my soul
Bourgeoning fantasies into unimaginable realities
Seeking my beauty within
I am restless and reckless
While the mirror plays tricks on me
You want me to see what you see
While scraping the flesh from my eyes
Hollowness replaced with shreds of glass
So I can view the real you
Through your own demented reflection
You are the demon I have been chasing
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,THE ECHOED SOUL

THE ECHOED SOUL

The stench of blood now etched
Within the sequence of my echoing soul
Torn between the deafening and threatening silence
You reached for me and fell for me
As the smoke cleared you disappeared
Into the solitary shadows
I love the walls that shut me in
The fabrication of death once again made amends
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SILENTLY NUMB

SILENTLY NUMB

Consistently provoked by deceit
Idle screams dragged beneath
The surface of my insecurities
He stripped me away
To a single layer of uncertainty
Silently numb I find myself asking
Why do I stay for the same reasons I leave
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,DEAF EYES

DEAF EYES

My words once again
Have fallen on deaf eyes and blind ears
The self-induced emotional abuse
Traveling in limbo where no one can hear
My lingering screams
The illusion of innocence
Overcome your ruthless insistence
With ill intentions
Heed the warnings but do not take notice
Draw me in closer as I sink deeper
And deeper…
Drifting in a fog
Until I finally wake up
To the emptiness
That is and always will be
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

ALERIE LYNN WRITES, NO REMORSE

NO REMORSE

There is something inside of me
That breaks when you are near
There is more inside of you
That surrenders out of fear
I am not strong enough
To handle your addiction
The one that binds
You with such force
I am not strong enough
To handle my conviction
The one that controls
My lack of remorse
© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, NO MORE

NO MORE

Nothing I do
Is ever good enough for you
You are always running and denying
Hiding from the truth
Nothing I say
Is ever going to make us okay
The moment I needed you the most
You turned the other way
The arguments never stop
No matter what it is about
Weakened from your verbal assaults
Everything is always my fault
Nothing I say
Can persuade you to stay
Out of empathy and shame
I always take the blame
This time I just need you to go away.
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, THE UNFORGIVING

THE UNFORGIVING

You secure the grip
Around my neck
Your bleak shadow
Reminds me of how
It all used to be
The walls turn black
Closing in on me
Feeding into the misery
Pacify the weak
Now it's my turn
To lie, cheat and deceive
Contradicting myself
I fear I will never win
Oh how I need to get even
Lust has found you once again
Conquered your discretion
Determined and able you crawl
To the feet of the unforgiving

© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, ABUSED LOVE

ABUSED LOVE (STOP DOMESTIC VIOLENCE)

I just want to forget
The time you said you loved me
When you slammed my head against the wall
Like I was your little rag doll
As my limp body was dragged down the hall
Wounds split wide open when I hit the door
Blood smeared across the floor
I just want to forget
The time you said you loved me
Then punched me in the throat
As I gasped for air that was not there
Thinking the one who hurt me
Was the only one who cared
I just want to forget
All the times you threatened
To take my life from me
Then pleaded for mercy saying you were sorry
I just want to forget
The time you said you loved me
As you threw me into the mirror
Witnessing the glass shatter all around
Hearing you laugh as I cried out loud
When the shards of glass cut my face and arms
You vowed to protect me from harm
Every scar on my body
Tells a different story
Of how much I loved you
The love that betrayed me 

I just want to forget
All the times you ever said you loved me 

© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, ECLIPSED

ECLIPSED

I am drawn into
Your bright baby blues
I get lost in them when I am with you
Like a shadow that falls across the moon
I seem to lose all track of time
When your eyes lock into mine
You are all I can see
There is no place I would rather be
You make me feel
As if I have a purpose in this life
I cannot imagine
Being without you by my side
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,MY SHADOW

MY SHADOW

Invariably lured
By the deceitful eyes
Of the insecure
Lips stained with lies
You are the evil
Crawling through me
As my shadow skips a beat
I feed into the misery
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SLEEPWALKING IN DREAMS

SLEEPWALKING IN DREAMS

You are always with me
When I am sleepwalking
In my dreams
As I keep sinking and falling
You catch me
Leaving me to believe
It was never a dream
If only it were that simple
I pull the sheets over me
Pretending I am asleep
Not yet ready to wake up
And face reality
There will always be a gaping wound inside
Where you crushed me and left me to die
The deadly mixture is slowly brewing
Inside my mind
I have something and I know you want it
I want something and I know you have it
© 2015 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DEMENTIA (In Loving Memory of You, Grandpa)

DEMENTIA (In Loving Memory of You, Grandpa)

I will never forget the way you looked at me
When I left a temporary imprint
Of a kiss from my lipstick on your forehead
Your eyes filled with such calmness
I knew it was coming, it could be any day
Before your angel would come to take you away
Somedays you knew it too
Then others you would forget who was who
I miss walking by your side
With your arm locked inside of mine
In the backyard we were going in circles
As you insisted we had to find the others
Even though the others were no longer there
Telling you the truth, I could not bear
So we simply walked round and round
Until you were ready to go sit down
You would read me your stories
And I will never forget
When you said the words
You were a "waste of talent"
I sincerely hope you did not think that was true
Because you inspired me to write
And you meant the world
To everyone you knew
On that Saturday you looked at me
With such confusion
That is when I realized
It was just a delusion
You said who is that
You called me that "beautiful girl"
I said Grandpa, it's me
I'm your granddaughter
The smile that quickly showed up on your face
Instantly made me feel safe
I saw at that moment you became aware
That it was actually me standing there
You remained so strong for us all
We were not ready for the phone call
Now that your angel has taken you away
I miss you more and more every single day
© 2014 Valerie Lynn
I love you ♥️

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, WEAK

WEAK

If what doesn't kill you
Makes you stronger
Then why am I so weak
Someone please
Put me out of my misery
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL

Too many nights I sulk and cry
Until my eyes bleed dry
Well no longer will I question why
What I am faced with in this life
Every time I will put up a fight
Now that I feel stronger inside
I refuse to give up and die
It is not my time
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, HERE WITH ME

HERE WITH ME

I can only dream 
How it was supposed to be 
If you were with me 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn
haiku 3 (5-7-5)

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, POINTLESS

POINTLESS

I no longer give a shit
What is the point of being alive
I am just patiently waiting here to die
Bedridden unable to live my life 

© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, EVERLASTING LOVE

EVERLASTING LOVE

Thank you Lord above
For sending me my true love 
The one I dreamed of 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn
haiku 1 (5-7-5)

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU

It has been six months 
Since you were taken away 
I cry everyday 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn
haiku 2 (5-7-5)

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, A NEW YEAR

A NEW YEAR

A brand new year and a glimmer of hope
With a bright light at the end of the tunnel that never existed before
It is time to look toward the future and take off the mask
No reason to hide, look back or dwell on the past
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,ENVY

ENVY

If people hate you 
Take it as a compliment
They want to be you 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

Saturday, 16 May 2015

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, INTOXICATING LOVE

INTOXICATING LOVE

Your silhouette framed by the golden sunset
Longing to kiss your perfect lips
Gazing into the bright beautiful hues
Reminiscing of the day we met
Memories entice me to embrace you and never let go
Breathing in your intoxicating love that continues to grow
Cherishing every waking moment of our life together
Feeling your heartbeat against my chest
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, ALL OR NOTHING

ALL OR NOTHING

Take me as I am
Accept every little flaw 
Or nothing at all
​© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAMSJI!!! ♥️

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAMSJI!!! ♥️

You have blessed us with your verses on love and life
Touching the hearts of your Cosmo family
Continuing to inspire the world around you
Making an impact on so many lives
Genuine and humble
You are truly one of a kind
Thank you for always being uplifting and supportive
I hope you have an amazing birthday today
You deserve it!!


 With Love from 
POETESS VALERIE LYNN


















Happy Birthday BigBro!

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, HEARTLESS

HEARTLESS

I lie and smile to get what I want
Then fake tears while I apologize
I tell you what you want to hear
So I gain control and keep you near
I only use you for my benefit
You are so naïve to think I give a shit
I will get inside your head
To make you wish that you were dead
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, BUTCHERED

BUTCHERED

He does not know your name
He does not know your age
He does know what he wants
He wants to take you away
Lurking from a distance
Blending in with a crowded room
Seeking his prey
His eyes studying your every move
It was too easy
How he followed you home
Now he is closing in on you
With eyes cold as stone
First he peers into your window
Then checks the locks on both doors
To his amazement the back one was not secured
So he enters expecting to score
Murder is on his mind tonight
As he quietly creeps up each stair
He puts on his leather gloves
While his victim is unaware
There is no eyewitness
As he sneaks up from behind
He puts one hand over your mouth
Now it is time
Your body thrashes about
As you attempt to scream
With one hand he grabs both of yours
Living out his paramount fantasy
He turns you around then pushes you onto the bed
He wants to make sure you can see his face
Your innocent eyes widen in shock
As he ties your arms and legs to the frame
Now unable to utter a whisper
Your body is frozen in place
He takes out a butcher knife
Soon to leave no trace
He has no desire to rape or maim
Only to inflict pain
As he pierces your soul
Ready to begin the game
He brushes the knife
In between your thighs
Then presses it against your neck
As you begin to cry
The tears do not persuade his decision
They only make him mad
The rage builds up inside
As he begins to brutally stab
At the end of the night
The total count of wounds
Including a sliced throat is over 102
The dead body left to rot is you
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, THE ONLY ONE

THE ONLY ONE

He is the only one
Who can make me smile
Even through the tears pouring down my face
He is the only one
Who shows me the light
When secretly deep down I feel like I belong in a dark place
He is the only one
Who knows the exact words to say
To pull me from the depths of misery
He is the only one
Who loves me unconditionally
Despite all my suffering
He is the only one
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,THE BEAUTY OF POETRY

THE BEAUTY OF POETRY

Vulnerable for all to see
That is the beauty of poetry
Sculpting art with only words
Leaving interpretation to the world
Exposing true magnitude
Writing from the heart with nothing to prove
 © 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, MISCARRIAGE

MISCARRIAGE

Rewind to tomorrow
So I can suppress all the sorrow
You were my entire world
I finally felt complete
To know there was life
Growing inside of me
Your mommy and daddy were so happy
And we whispered to my belly
You were all we could talk about
We already had the names picked out
Six weeks along I was in heaven
Already anticipating your beautiful presence
I prayed to God for your safety
For you would be my miracle baby
I had complete faith in Him
Even with circumstances so grim
Doctors said my body was weak
Their outlook on us was so bleak
Despite the dreadful news
My feelings for you remained enthused
I could not wait to hold onto you
To show people miracles do come true
Your daddy told me if you were a girl
He would greet your boyfriends with a shotgun at the door
The thought of that
Only made me laugh
He said if we had twins
He was sure to have a heart attack
I know if you were a boy
Your daddy would be overjoyed
I think deep down he was secretly wishing
So he could take you hunting and fishing
Another counted week went by
As I continued to dream of you by my side
Dreaming down the days
When we could feel your sweet embrace
Thinking about you wrapped in our arms
Thinking about us always protecting you from harm
In month two
I desperately wanted to meet you
I woke up with my spirits high
Then looked down to see the darkened blood
Drenched in our sheets
Smeared between my thighs
The worst day of my life
I will never forget
How my entire life changed
Nothing would ever be the same
I guess for once the doctors were right
My body was too weak
My miracle baby did not survive
In loving memory of our precious baby.
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SET ABLAZE

SET ABLAZE

Silence fills the air
Colorful world of despair
I watch you take the gasoline
Smiling as you pour it over me
It leaks into my eyes
As it seeps between my thighs
Now I lay set ablaze
While you become
The orange flames
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, REFLECTION OF DEPRESSION

REFLECTION OF DEPRESSION

Depression runs deep
Within the family
But is it really a disease
Or just a way of thinking
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, THE FLAME

THE FLAME

There once was a light
At the end of the tunnel
Guiding me along the way
I followed it until the end
When it suddenly faded away
The enticing light turned out
To only be a flame
Snuffed out
By the devil himself
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LOVE AND HATE

LOVE AND HATE

If there is such a fine line
Between love and hate
Then that must explain
Why I hate the way you love me
Why I love the way you hate me
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, IS THIS LOVE?

IS THIS LOVE?

I just want to forget
The time you said you loved me
When you slammed my head against the wall
Like I was your little rag doll
As my limp body was dragged down the hall
Wounds split wide open when I hit the door
Blood smeared across the floor
I just want to forget
The time you said you loved me
Then punched me in the throat
As I gasped for air that was not there
Thinking the one who hurt me
Was the only one who cared
I just want to forget
All the times you threatened
To take my life from me
Then pleaded for mercy saying you were sorry
I just want to forget
The time you said you loved me
As you threw me into the mirror
Witnessing the glass shatter all around
Hearing you laugh as I cried out loud
When the shards of glass cut my face and arms
You vowed to protect me from harm
I just want to forget
The time you said you loved me
As you kicked me down the stairs
Immediately resulting in my first miscarriage
Every scar on my body
Tells a different story
Of how much I loved you
The love that betrayed me
I just want to forget
All the times you ever said you loved me
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,MY LOVE

MY LOVE

I do not want to be
Without you
Or you without me
You are my one
My only
My only one true love
© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SHOCKED (Co-write with Jason Luke)

SHOCKED (Co-write with Jason Luke)

He asked her politely
Said it would taste great
So she put it in her mouth
To give it a taste
She hesitated at first
But he said trust me
At first it was juicy
Then a bit salty
It gave her throat a little tickle
But damn
That was one hell of a pickle

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LIFE AFTER DEATH

LIFE AFTER DEATH

Everlasting life
Promised with the kiss of death 
No way to escape 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DARK ANGEL

DARK ANGEL

Devil in disguise
Fallen from grace
Heart once full of life
Now scorned with hate
Piercing love with sin
Emotions bleak as stone
Inviting the unknown
© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, MY TRUTH

MY TRUTH

The one who told me 
To be myself gave me the
Worst advice ever 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DOMINATE

DOMINATE

Whisper softly to me
Beneath the sheets
As l blindly obey
Every command you demand
Place the blindfold over my eyes
Anxiously awaiting your surprise
Then grab my hands
Tie them tightly behind my back
Bound in a submissive position
Tonight I am your fantasy
Take advantage and play with me
Any way you want it
Execute the dominate role
My body is all yours
As I let you take control
Tease me
Kiss me
Bite me
Satisfy me completely
Keep the whispers coming
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, THE LURE OF DEATH

THE LURE OF DEATH

Her eyes
The shade of emerald green
Will lure you into a trance
So hypnotic
Her porcelain skin
The shade of death
Welcomes you within seconds
So radiant
Such an innocence about her
Until the smooth surface
Slowly begins to peel back
Layer by layer
Revealing the cracks
Beneath the facade
Then she pulls you under
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, BLOOD TEARS

BLOOD TEARS

The pain bleeds down my face
In streams of pure madness
My own reflection taunting me
Strangled by the ligature of silence
Force fed lies never to cease
Rage scorns the demons beneath
Choking on air failing to see
You were never there for me
Now I am bathed in blood
Overwhelmed with sadness
Drowning while it rains inside
Nowhere to go, nowhere to hide
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DEATH WISH

DEATH WISH

Wishing for my death
I watched you take your last breath
Please come back to me
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,VENOM

VENOM

Walking in a coma
Waking to a slumber
Blinded by sight
Submerged in isolation
Vertiginous and broken
Dispersed into darkness
Beckoning silence
Injecting the venom
Captivated by nothing
Frozen within a memory
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DESIRE

DESIRE

If you are a dream 
Within a dream then I want 
To go back to sleep 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, EMPTY PROMISES

EMPTY PROMISES

Fading away Into a jaded state
I reached Out for you
My hope, My only keepsake
Suffering silently, Oblivious and weary
Once again I fell victim
Lost control and drank from Your poison
Promises always empty
Promising to Remain with me
Prisoner to My own body
Helplessly pleading For your mercy
Once again I reached out For security
Take my hand As we Both know
This disease will Be the death of me
But instead Your eyes locked Into mine
Betraying me as you continued along
I glanced away so I would not have to see
As you permanently turned your back on me
© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,UNSATISFIED

UNSATISFIED

She's insatiable 
Ominously beautiful
Heartless with no soul
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,DESPAIR

DESPAIR

Heart racing
Pulse elevating
Head throbbing
Temperature rising
Pressure increasing
Insomnia progressing
Worry escalating
Body trembling
Mind altering
Vision fading
Hope failing
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,TWISTED

TWISTED

Forced to conquer the ultimate demon,
Driven by fault and sheer confusion.
Rejection from the outside world,
Left her feeling empty and alone.
Trapped in a dangerous state of mind,
Convincing others everything was fine.
Conflicting voices inside her head,
Induced the desire to witness death.
Submitting to their twisted game,
Intrigued by pain and eager to play.
© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,GOODBYE

GOODBYE

Push me off the edge
So I can fall to my death 
No use wasting space
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,HALLOWEEN NIGHTMARE

HALLOWEEN NIGHTMARE

People would suspect
It was only an accident
All Hallows' Eve
Perfect night to deceive
Unable to recognize
The face behind the mask
Wide-eyed and naive
She fitly fell into his trap
For only an instant
She caught a quick glimpse
Into the familiar evil eyes
Who would soon take her life
Far too weak to break free
Suddenly blindfolded so she could not see
One stab, two stab, then three
As blood covered her entire body
Hands bound behind her back
Duct tape covered her mouth
Unable to move or scream
He tossed her into a murky stream
After his mission was complete
He removed evidence from the scene
Took his two boys around the street
Smiling as they said trick or treat
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,FINALLY

FINALLY

If home is where the heart is...
Then I am finally home.
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,THE PATH

THE PATH

Place your hand in mine
Walk with me towards the light 
Leave all doubts behind 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,HOLLOW (AGAIN)

HOLLOW (AGAIN)

I am tired and weak
Now only a burden
Physical pain
Emotional rape
Looking for an ending
Constantly searching
For something
Inside of nothing
Questioning why
The heartache and suffering
Eyes once full of life
Heart was oh so hopeful
Now there is nothing left
All I feel is hollow
This all has to end
Before I end it all
One way or another
It will all be over
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LOST ALL HOPE

LOST ALL HOPE

I cannot believe this is happening again
I swore for a week I had gone into remission
But of course not
That would be too simple and would make me happy
If the pressure in my head would subside
For only an instant than I could breathe
This pain is too much to handle by myself
I can feel every part of my body going to hell
Just for once I want more than two days a month
To make it out of bed
The symptoms are literally killing me
I cannot break free
Pain is overwhelming
What happens when your body starts rejecting
Every single medication that could be helping
I think I figured it out
You lose all hope and kill yourself
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,NO PURPOSE

NO PURPOSE

I serve no purpose in this life
The only point of me being here
Is to stay alive
Long enough until I die 

© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, FORGIVE ME (FIRST SONG)

FORGIVE ME (FIRST SONG)

Since I can’t sing I uploaded a video of the tune that has been stuck in my head all day...
(Please forgive me)
You don’t know what’s coming
Today you will die
I will never forget it
The look in your eyes
You are so pathetic
Get ready to bleed
Baby, I had you begging
On your dirty little knees
Reach for my hand
It’s time to play
Your toxic love
Has me screaming again
I can’t wait to make it all end
The fault within you
Is seething through my veins
I can’t wait to feel your pain
(Please forgive me)
Such a pretty little mess
How does this make sense?
I need to make amends
You’re too late to be saved
Blood dripping down you are going to drown
Now you see me coming
Keep holding your breath
You will never get away love
Blood pouring from your chest
Your fear is overwhelming
As we all circle and laugh
Here comes the knife now
To slice your pretty face in half
Reach for my hand
I still want to play
Your toxic love
Has me screaming again
I can’t wait to make it all end
The fault within you
Is seething through my veins
I can’t wait to feel your pain
(Please forgive me)
Such a pretty little mess
How does this make sense?
I need to make amends
You’re too late to be saved
Blood dripping down you are going to drown
I know that look inside your eyes
A coward too eager to hide
Unwilling to sacrifice your life
It’s your fault tonight you die
[3X]
Beyond the grave
Please forgive me
I’m sorry love
I’ve created this wreck
Your toxic love
Has me screaming again
I can’t wait to make it all end
The fault within you
Is seething through my veins
I can’t wait to feel your pain
(Please forgive me)
Such a pretty little mess
How does this make sense?
I need to make amends
You’re too late to be saved
Blood dripping down you are going to drown
(Please forgive me)
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SUICIDE DEPRESSION

SUICIDE DEPRESSION

The depression is overwhelming
Finally taking its toll
I have tried everything
To manage it and gain control
So far nothing is working
I am dying from this disease
I'm sick and tired of the suffering
There is no saving me
If only I could decide
How I will commit suicide
I just want to be a memory
One that no one will remember...
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,YOUR TASTE

YOUR TASTE

Confusing convulsions arising in motion
Seamless visions of devotion
Rain seeping through the windows we glued
It’s all coming around, back to you
Vulnerability captured my heart
As I witnessed innocence falling apart
Your taste is mint with a twist of lust
A sober distraction hindered by trust
The poison seeping from your mouth
Lures me to gravitate south
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, ALONE AGAIN

ALONE AGAIN

One by one
The ones I loved
Left me here
All alone
To rot in this mess
We call a world
This time I don't give a shit
Happiness does not exist
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,I AM BENEATH YOU NOW

I AM BENEATH YOU NOW

I am
Crumbling into ashes
Beneath
Your scorned mind
You
Take all control
Now
It is my time to die
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,TEMPTED

TEMPTED

Something is missing
Perhaps it is a craving
My heart is aching
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,USELESS

USELESS

You repulse me
You are disgusting
You are nothing to me
So bitter and lonely
Why can't you see
I am giving up on you completely
Erasing all the memories
Repleted with your pathetic agony
Obviously you lack the ability
To comprehend anything
I suppose my words are empty
Just like your heart will always be
You repulse me
You are disgusting
You were everything to me
Now so bitter and lonely
This time...I set myself free
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,HAUNTED WIDOW

HAUNTED WIDOW

Fingernails scraping
Against the concrete
Her only destination
Six feet deep
Unable to escape
Ill awaited fate
Completely vulnerable
Under his control
Blood saturated screams
Slowly drown out
Hushed by the dirt
Immersed in her throat
Wide-eyed and beautiful
She still haunts you
Widow of heart and soul
You murdered years ago
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, IN LOVING MEMORY OF EDWARD (6/11/14)

IN LOVING MEMORY OF EDWARD (6/11/14)

Taken from this world far too soon
Leaving broken hearts here; missing you
I wish I had known; given the chance to say goodbye
Infinite questions only answered with why
Shedding layers of emotion
Tears falling, gently then amply
You always gave me hope and loving advice
I am eternally grateful; you changed my life
A piece of me will forever remain empty
Evermore, I will cherish your memory
You were always there for me
For anyone, in a time of need
Your encouraging words paved the way
To the optimistic person I am now today
You were such an inspiration to all you knew
If I had the chance I would trade places with you
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.
In loving memory of Edward Fares (6/11/14)
Dear Edward,
Thank you for giving me the chance to work with you for nearly three years at Farouk Systems, Inc. It was an honor to not only know you, the engineer who made the CHI flat irons and hair dryers, but also to be your executive assistant. I enjoyed every day I had working in the office with you as well as going to spend time with you and all the incredible workers in the factory. I believe God put you in my life for a reason and I cannot comprehend why you had to leave us all so early in your life. I know I will see you again in heaven and that will be a special day for me. I heard from several employees that you were more like a father figure than a boss to them. I feel the exact same way. Even though I had to stop working due to my debilitating illness, you were still there to offer encouraging words of support that got me through the day. I pray for your family every night. I know how much you cared for them and loved them unconditionally just by the way you talked about them. I honestly cannot imagine what they are going through and I pray their faith remains just as strong as you always were. You will never be forgotten.
With Love,
Valerie

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,ICY RED

ICY RED

He sits beside me in silence
Expressionless with thoughts misguided
The light reflects into darkness
Casting a shadow
As his eyes glaze over
The color once icy blue
Now turned red with truth
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SET FREE

SET FREE

Pain so incessant
Falling into a deep sleep
I forget to breathe 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DEATH BY CANCER

DEATH BY CANCER

Warped ambition
Ill advance
Rhythmic affliction
Ruthless insistence
Reasons we cannot explain
Instincts we can trust
Events we cannot foreshadow
Reminiscence we can lust
Dilute past regrets
Focus on present calling
Archaic ties grasp
Susceptible to falling
Rendered by fault
Conquered by certainty
Feared by all
Discerned by nobody
Addicted habit formed
Harmful daily use
Loved ones scorned
Self inflicted abuse
Reality sinks in
Embrace the torment
Justify every sin
Prepare for execution
Your time has come
Accept the fact
The damage is done
No turning back
Cancer won the battle
Your body lost control
The poison was fatal
No antidote to console
Merely words engraved
Concrete becomes new face
Inevitably fading with time
Name is all that remains
© 2003 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, THE KISS OF DEATH

THE KISS OF DEATH

Everlasting life
Promised with the kiss of death 
No way to escape 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, A TRIBUTE DEDICATED TO WILLIAMSJI'S FATHER ♥️

A TRIBUTE DEDICATED TO WILLIAMSJI'S FATHER ♥️

It is difficult to describe the feelings we experience when a loved one's life is abruptly taken away from us.

Dear Williamsji, Big Bro -
I am truly sorry for the loss of your father.
Life in this world is a sacred gift to be cherished.
With your strength and courage, I know you have the endurance to keep your spirits and head held up high as you celebrate his life with pride.
He is smiling down on you from heaven as you smile at the thought of him being in a place now with no more pain. When you close your eyes at night, rest peacefully, for one day you will see him again at peace. 








With Love,
YLS Val ♥️
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DECIPHER ME

DECIPHER ME

Find new ways to lie
How many wrongs make a right 
Camouflage my flaws
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DEAR MOM, Thank you for saving my life

DEAR MOM, Thank you for saving my life

When you held me in your arms
For the very first time
My baby blues stared back
Into your loving hazel eyes
As we grew older you became
One of my best friends
Someone whom I could rely on
Until the very end
To this precise day your strength
Continues to amaze me as you
Have no control over watching
Your once healthy daughter deteriorate
Constantly spiraling downwards
Over and over again
Four years with this disease
So many tears, so much pain
You never gave up on me
Always remained by my side
I want to thank you for that
Thank you for saving my life
This Mother's Day was different
I miss seeing your smiling face
Hopefully next year I can get out of bed
So we can go out and celebrate
You brought me into this world
With all your love to give
I wish you knew how much you mean to me
You are the reason I still live
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.
I would be so lucky if someday I was blessed with one of my own and could be at least half the mother you are to me.
I love you!

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,YOUR HALO - MY NOOSE

YOUR HALO - MY NOOSE

Your halo, my noose
Sinking in the shallow end
Uncomfortably comforting
There is an aching in the heart
Where the pulse bleeds, where it begins
You take and you take and you take from me
Hold me close if only from a distance
You can take my soul
But please leave my body alone
I have secretly engraved
My own tombstone
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN, STILL DREAMING OF YOU

STILL DREAMING OF YOU

I still continue
To dream about you
I will always long for your touch
To feel all your tiny fingers
Wrapped around my one
I will always long to feel
Your tiny heartbeat against me
To feel your sweet innocent
Breath upon my cheek
You are the void
I am still missing
But one day
I will have you, I will hold you
I will always love you
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.
This is a follow up to my poem "I dream of you" that is posted below per request:
I Dream of You...
I may not be able to fully grasp the concept of overwhelming genuine love that completely consumes a person until your existence arrives in my arms but I do know at this very moment it will be the greatest experience I can ever dream and hope for. Right now I have the love of my life laying next to me and as he sleeps I look over and think to myself how amazing it will be when the time comes for your arrival into this world. I cannot wait until we both get to stare into your big beautiful eyes and think of how wonderful our lives will be with you in it and knowing that we created life. Your precious life. I cannot wait to hold you. I cannot wait to tell all of our family and friends that we have created a true miracle. I already don't want to ever let you go. Tonight I will dream of you and in the morning I will awake with a smile upon my face. I will share this with your daddy and we will talk about how much you are loved already. We both cannot wait for the day you are here and how amazing it will be to begin our lives together as a truly happy family. We already love you more than you will ever know.
© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Poem I wrote over 20 years ago...

Poem I wrote over 20 years ago...

When I was 9

You would think that in this world
Filled with so many people
One would want to help out
One another
But no…
Instead we are forced to grieve
The loss of innocent victims
Due to jealousy and greed
Mourn lives lost
Spilled blood
I will never understand
I will never comprehend
Why
Why God
Why
© 1993 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, HOPELESS

HOPELESS

I truly believe
No one knows the suffering  
I wish I was dead 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Immense Desire

Immense Desire

It begins with the eyes. Exposing inner accuracy. In all its forms.
Beauty. Vulnerability. Deception. Lies.
Your eyes took me by surprise. The color, icy blue. They were warm.
Comforting. Inviting. Honest. True.
It ends with the dynamism. Embodying internal veracity. In all its configurations.
Enticing. Captivating. Stable. Commendable.
Your actions proved noble. You were absolutely mesmerizing. Placing me on a pedestal.
Comforting. Inviting. Honest. True.
I was submissive to the intensity, my desire immense.
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LYME DISEASE

LYME DISEASE

Agonizing pain
Slowly draining happiness 
All hope fades away 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Lyme Disease in Spring

Lyme Disease in Spring

It is now spring time and you are still here with me
Another year has gone by suffering with this disease
Even though there is no cure, you remain by my side
Feeding me the strength I need to get by; to stay alive
I am looking out the window as the light shines through
This spring, all I want is to spend a day outside with you 
I keep praying for a miracle to take the pain away
So we can walk hand in hand through the sun’s rays
But for now this is just a simple wish of my own
If it were not for you, this would be another season alone
Hopefully one day in the near future someone out there
Will be able to find a cure for this disease to share
Until that day arrives, I will sit in the dimly lit room
Dreaming about witnessing exterior beauty with you
It is now spring time; a season filled with happiness
Only this year, this time I am filled with sadness
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LIFE

LIFE

Jesus I want to 
Thank you for sacrificing 
Your life for our sins 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.
I wrote this poem for Easter and dedicate it to my mom ♥️

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LUST

LUST

Trust me when I want 
Something I always get it 
Tonight I want you 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, TRAPPED

TRAPPED

Transparently opaque
I am trapped in a maze
Blinded by deceit
I cannot erase
The past
I cannot escape
The wrath
Of death hunting me
Walking and running
Stumbling then falling
My lips go numb
As I bite my tongue
Seeking comfort
Among the wounds
As I watch you cast
Your curse upon me
Walking and running
Stumbling then falling
In the end of the beginning
Within shadows of misery
Happiness littered with sorrow
Beneath scorned ashes
Love laced with hate
I remain trapped in a maze
Walking and running
Stumbling then falling
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DEAD INSIDE

DEAD INSIDE

Little do you know
I can peer into your soul
Laughing as you rot to the core
Such a sad pathetic whore
No signs of life
Dead inside
Scraping the wounds
To feel a high
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SUICIDE ENDING

SUICIDE ENDING

I am tired and weak
I am only a burden
Physical pain
Emotional rape
Looking for an ending
Constantly searching
For something
Inside of nothing
Questioning why
The heartache and suffering
Eyes once full of life
Heart was oh so hopeful
Now there is nothing left
All I feel is hollow

I can taste the cold metal
On the barrel of the gun
As I raise it to my mouth
There is no pity
For someone like me
I alone have made this decision
This is my choosing
My undoing

This time I am not sorry
On the other side
Is where I want to be
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

Friday, 15 May 2015

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, My Little Experiment

My Little Experiment

There is a hole in your heart
I put it there
I am not sorry but I must admit
You were only an experiment
For my own pleasure
You were just my little secret
All I wanted was to see
If you still had feelings for me
You were just a personal goal
For me to master control
So with a smirk
I said three words
Expecting you to run away
Instead you kissed my head
Whispering you felt the same way
Well I do not want you back
You ruined me once before
Please turn and walk away
Before I beg you for more
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SERIAL KILLER

SERIAL KILLER

Evil lurks within
Demented motives unknown
He will kill again
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, HE

HE

He brings me to life
If for only a second
His eyes lock with mine 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, PRETTY DEMISE

PRETTY DEMISE

I see the sun rise
After two nights of no sleep 
Somebody help me 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, PRETTY DEMISE

PRETTY DEMISE

I am sorry my love
This is not something I can control
I am sorry my love
As I watch your skull hit the floor
Evil plagues my mind
I am sure you were aware
I fantasized about your demise
I am sure you pretended to care
The blood on my hands begins to dry
As it mats and settles into your hair
You were not even worth my time
It is your fault for being there
© 2014 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, WORTHLESS

WORTHLESS

My life is worthless 
Please stop trying to save me
It will destroy you 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, GIVEN UP

GIVEN UP

I don't want to be here.
I don't want to be anywhere...
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, MISTRUST

MISTRUST

Darkened secrets hide
Behind this innocent face
Trust me completely 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DEDICATED TO MY LOVE

DEDICATED TO MY LOVE

Thank you for spending Valentine’s Day with me in the hospital!!!
I LOVE YOU!!!
You say hazel but I see blue
Two perfect beautiful hues
I get lost in when I am with you
Like a shadow that falls across the moon
When your eyes lock into mine
I seem to lose all track of time
You are all I can see
There is no place I would rather be
Than in your loving arms
Where you protect me from harm
With all the shit we have been through
I know you are the one I can turn to
Trust is something I am not used to
From the bottom of my heart I thank you
For always being there to hold my hand
For being a better man
Than all the others I had in the past
You go above and beyond simple daily tasks
You open the car door for me without me having to ask
You do anything and everything to keep my spirits high
Even when the depression takes over and I say I want to die
You make me feel as if I have a purpose in this life
I cannot imagine being without you by my side
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, CUTTING THROUGH ME

CUTTING THROUGH ME

You cut my heart
To watch me bleed out
Calling me a liar
You set a fire
To watch me burn
Fueling your desire
The entire time
I watched your eyes
Looking back into mine
The only image I could see
Was my own reflection
Smiling back at me
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, MY VALENTINE

MY VALENTINE

I gave up on life
You rescued me just in time
Thank You Valentine
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, NO HOPE

NO HOPE

I cannot believe this is happening again
I swore for a week I had gone into remission
But of course not
That would be too simple and would make me happy
If the pressure in my head would subside
For only an instant than I could breathe
This pain is too much to handle by myself
I can feel every part of my body going to hell
Just for once I want more than two days a month
To make it out of bed
The symptoms are literally killing me
I cannot break free
Pain is overwhelming
What happens when your body starts rejecting
Every single medication that could be helping
I think I figured it out
You lose all hope and kill yourself
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, FALLEN

FALLEN

Cloak myself in black
Demons have my heart today
I gave it away 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, PLAY WITH ME

PLAY WITH ME

The devil within
Is ready to sin again
Won't you come and play
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, ABUSED by LOVE

ABUSED by LOVE

There is a glimmer of hope
Still left in her eyes
Imprisoned in a dismal disposition
Invisible emotional scars
Physical wounds displayed for all
Blind to the peril imposed
Mind reformed to accept control
Shy away from the obvious
Remain oblivious full of excuses
No trust no one to confide in
Waiting for the day she can change him
No more alcohol
No more broken bones
No more bruises
No more black eyes
No more yelling
No more pills
No more lies
Hope is all that remains
Even when she is aware
He will never change
She justifies his abusive actions
In her mind she tells herself
I know you love me
You say it after every fight
I know you are sorry
You say it to me every night
One day when she least expects it
He carries out his malicious threat
The promise of death
Over and over she begs for her life
Told him everything will be alright
She was in far too deep
He tells her to breathe
As he holds her head down
Pushed underwater to drown
Abused by love
The only love she ever found
There is a glimmer of hope
Still left in her eyes
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, The EX

The EX

Last night in my dream
You died and then I woke up
With the biggest smile
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,Beautiful Catastrophe

Beautiful Catastrophe

Suffer silently 
Beautiful catastrophe
No blissful ending 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, TRUE LOVE

TRUE LOVE

I thought I would never get over –him-
For eight years I dwelled on the past
As I was so distraught and worn thin
Desperately wanting to end
The emotional pain
As I lay in the hospital
The doctors told me in vain
No cure for my condition
I would be there for a while
Feeling beyond hopeless
Life was not worthwhile
You told me how you wanted to see me
No matter how serious my condition was
You told me you had feelings for me
For some reason I called you up
Despite my mental and physical disposition
14 years had passed since I saw you last
But I could not fight my intuitions
To prove to you how serious my illness was
The day you showed up at the Emergency Room
I never imagined our feelings would instantly resume
In the hospital for seven nights
You stayed by my side the entire time
Holding my hand
Trying to convince me
God had bigger plans
So I listened to you
As you became my immediate comfort
I was not ready for this
But something greater took over
I knew instantly you were the one meant for me
I no longer think of -him- anymore
As you indefinitely stole my heart
You kept it in a secret place
You became my sacred hide away
Now I am happier than I could ever be
I still wish I could rid this deadly disease
So we could be forever happy
Every day I wake up to you
You give me motivation
To see the day through
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.
Thank you for always being there for me.
I would not be able to go on without your amazing support.
I love you…

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, JEALOUSY

JEALOUSY

Cut yourself and bleed
With envy as your eyes are
Fixated on me
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Sanitize the Lies

Sanitize the Lies

Sever the ties
Before they bind
Sanitize the lies
Before they imply
Breathe the truth
Before it dies
Enjoy your youth
Before it passes by
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Too Late

Too Late

Time is running out
I can sense the urgency
Too late - you lost me 
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DECIDING TONIGHT...

DECIDING TONIGHT...

I pick up the blade
As I contemplate
Should I slit my wrists again
Or go straight for the jugular vein
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, THANK YOU

THANK YOU

You threw the dagger
Perfect Impulse
Entering my heart Melting the ice
You threw the knife
Perfect Notion
Entering my back Severing the spine
Thank you
I suppose I deserved everything
You ever gave me
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Widow of a Soul

Widow of a Soul

Wide-eyed and beautiful
She still haunts you
Widow of a heart and soul
You murdered years ago
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, MELTING

MELTING

Light reflecting to darkness
Melting my valor into ice.
From beyond the deafening silence
Taunt me with your eyes...
The sun begins to fall
As you neglect to rise.
Born from death
It's time to run and hide...
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, SET FREE...

SET FREE...

I Loved Him So I Set Him Free.
He Never Came Back To Me...
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, LIFE to DEATH

LIFE to DEATH

Life
Unpredictable, Uncertain
Intriguing, Compelling, Surprising
Appreciate, Live, Fear, Expect
Approaching, Guaranteeing, Terminating
Destined, Permanent
Death
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, DEMENTIA

DEMENTIA (In Loving Memory of You, Grandpa)

I will never forget the way you looked at me
When I left a temporary imprint
Of a kiss from my lipstick on your forehead
Your eyes filled with such calmness
I knew it was coming, it could be any day
Before your angel would come to take you away
Somedays you knew it too
Then others you would forget who was who
I miss walking by your side
With your arm locked inside of mine
In the backyard we were going in circles
As you insisted we had to find the others
Even though the others were no longer there
Telling you the truth, I could not bear
So we simply walked round and round
Until you were ready to go sit down
You would read me your stories
And I will never forget
When you said the words
You were a "waste of talent"
I sincerely hope you did not think that was true
Because you inspired me to write
And you meant the world
To everyone you knew
On That Saturday you looked at me
With such confusion
That is when I realized
It was just a delusion
You said who is that
You called me that "beautiful girl"
I said Grandpa, it's me
I'm your granddaughter
The smile that quickly showed up on your face
Instantly made me feel safe
I saw at that moment you became aware
That it was actually me standing there
You remained so strong for us all
We were not ready for the phone call
Now that your angel has taken you away
I miss you more and more every single day
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.
I love you <3

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,Passive to Aggressive

Passive to Aggressive

Passive
Adaptable, Compliant
Abiding, Relinquishing, Humbling
Accept, Observe, Dispute, Propose
Intruding, Offending, Assailing
Opinionated, Argumentative
Aggressive
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,Solitude

Solitude

Prey among the deprived
Asphyxiate the weak
Claim an innocent life
Call on the meek
Sink in solitude
Remain unspoken
Descend in isolation
Linger with silence
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Suicide to Kill The Pain

Suicide to Kill The Pain

This all has to end
Before I end it all
One way or another
It will all be over
The pills are sticking to my palm
As I realize my only option out
Is to reach for my mouth
And swallow them whole
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Go Away.

Go Away.

Whenever I think of you
My only wish
Is that I never met you

© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERI LYNN WRITES, SPICE

SPICE

Every time you take a Hit
You are playing Russian roulette
Why gamble with your Life
It is Not worth the risk
Do you want to end up
In a hospital bed
Or even worse
End up DEAD
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,Gone

Gone

The past is slowly
Painted black
Detritus line the walls
To match


© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, New Year * New Beginnings

New Year * New Beginnings

A brand new year with a glimmer of hope
With a bright light at the end of the tunnel that never existed before
It is time to look toward the future and take off the mask
No reason to hide, look back or dwell on the past
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Angel in Heaven

Angel in Heaven

As I write this the tears won't stop
Streaming down my face
To this day it is hard to accept
You are now in a better place
At first we thought it was only the flu
So we kept our faith as we all knew
Of course you would make it through
All the testing they had to do
The news of your illness
Was incomprehensible
You were playing dress up
Just two weeks ago
At age four you were stronger
Than any adult I ever knew
I wanted to hold you one more time
Even when your body was blue
Before you left us
You whispered in my ear
How excited you were to meet God
Because you knew Gus was there
You said your doggy went to heaven
Way high up in the sky
To wait for you
When it was your time to fly
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, NOTHING

NOTHING

Nothing I do
Is ever good enough for you
You are always running and denying
Hiding from the truth
Nothing I say
Is ever going to make us okay
The moment I needed you the most
You turned the other way
The arguments never stop
No matter what it is about
Weakened from your verbal assaults
Everything is always my fault
Nothing I say
Can persuade you to stay
Out of empathy and shame
I always take the blame
This time I just need you to go away.
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Idle Screams

Idle Screams

Stripped away to a single layer of uncertainty
Idle screams dragged beneath
So hopeless and helpless
Drowning in the shadow of misery
Invariably lured by deceit
Evil temptation provokes me
Silently numb I find myself asking
Why do I stay for the same reasons I leave
© 2014 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, No Remorse

No Remorse

There is something inside of me
That breaks when you are near
There is more inside of you
That surrenders out of fear
I am not strong enough
To handle your addiction
The one that binds
You with such force
I am not strong enough
To handle my conviction
The one that controls
My lack of remorse
© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, I Dream of You...

I Dream of You...

*I actually wrote this during one of my black outs so decided to share*
I may not be able to fully grasp the concept of overwhelming genuine love that completely consumes a person until your existence arrives in my arms but I do know at this very moment it will be the greatest experience I can ever dream and hope for. Right now I have the love of my life laying next to me and as he sleeps I look over and think to myself how amazing it will be when the time comes for your arrival into this world. I cannot wait until we both get to stare into your big beautiful eyes and think of how wonderful our lives will be with you in it and knowing that we created life. Your precious life. I cannot wait to hold you. I cannot wait to tell all of our family and friends that we have created a true miracle. I already don't want to ever let you go. Tonight I will dream of you and in the morning I will awake with a smile upon my face. I will share this with your daddy and we will talk about how much you are loved already. We both cannot wait for the day you are here and how amazing it will be to begin our lives together as a truly happy family. We already love you more than you will ever know.
© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Count Your Blessings

Count Your Blessings

Count your blessings
Repent your sins
For you never know
When it will be the end

© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES,BETRAYED

BETRAYED

 Fading away Into a jaded state
 I reached Out for you
 My hope, My only keepsake
 Suffering silently, Oblivious and weary
 Once again I fell victim
 Lost control and drank from Your poison
 Promises always empty
 Promising to Remain with me
 Prisoner to My own body
 Helplessly pleading For your mercy
 Once again I reached out For security
 Take my hand As we Both know
 This disease will Be the death of me
 But instead Your eyes locked Into mine
 Betraying me as you continued along
 I glanced away so I would not have to see
 As you permanently turned your back on me

27th November, 2013
© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Memory

Memory

I should have held on to your hand
A little while longer when I had the chance
I should have held you closer
But at that time I did not understand
Your beautiful smile and face
Frozen in time inside a frame
It brings me to a place I feel safe
But sometimes I just cannot hide the pain
Every time I wear or see the color pink
I think of you and your amazing strength
So many lives have changed since that day
The day when you were taken away

13 th October, 2013
© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

I love and miss you...

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, NO ESCAPE

NO ESCAPE

Fingernails scraping
Against the concrete
Her only destination
Six feet deep
Unable to escape
Ill awaited fate
Completely vulnerable
Under his control
Blood saturated screams
Slowly drown out
Hushed by the dirt
Immersed in her throat

11th October, 2013
© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Goodbye Forever...

Goodbye Forever...

Contest Theme- The Bus Stop:
He is far too numb
To realize the burden
I have become
Sitting at the bus stop
I keep thinking
My only option
Is to leave him...

28th September, 2013
© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved.

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, FREE

FREE

Clearly you do not see
How this is effecting me
It is time to cut the strings
Please set yourself free
All I ever wanted
Was for you to be happy

04 th September, 2013
© 2013 Valerie Lynn. All rights reserved

The Malayalam translation of the above poem will be made available shorty,

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VALERIE LYNN WRITES, Egress

Egress

Bound by affection
Torn by truth
Enter the egress
Beneath the wound
Below the surface
Into the womb

04th September, 2013
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VALERIE LYNN WRITES, THE UNFORGIVING

THE UNFORGIVING

You secure the grip
Around my neck
Your bleak shadow
Reminds me of how
It all used to be
The walls turn black
Closing in on me
Feeding into the misery
Pacify the weak
Now it's my turn
To lie, cheat and deceive
Contradicting myself
I fear I will never win
Oh how I need to get even
Lust has found you once again
Conquered your discretion
Determined and able you crawl
To the feet of the unforgiving
14th August, 2013
© 2013 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, CANCER

CANCER

Warped ambition
Ill advance
Rhythmic affliction
Ruthless insistence
Reasons we cannot explain
Instincts we can trust
Events we cannot foreshadow
Reminiscence we can lust
Dilute past regrets
Focus on present calling
Archaic ties grasp
Susceptible to falling
Rendered by fault
Conquered by certainty
Feared by all
Discerned by nobody
Addicted habit formed
Harmful daily use
Loved ones scorned
Self inflicted abuse
Reality sinks in
Embrace the torment
Justify every sin
Prepare for execution
Your time has come
Accept the fact
The damage is done
No turning back
Cancer won the battle
Your body lost control
The poison was fatal
No antidote to console
Merely words engraved
Concrete becomes new face
Inevitably fading with time
Name is all that remains

2nd July, 2013
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VALERIE LYNN WRITES, UNDECIDED

Undecided

Listen intently as they whisper calmly
It parts from the jaws of the guilty
Twisted desires reflect the uncertainty
Directed one way; pulled another
Embraced by mindless thoughts
Consumed by guilty pleasures
Swallowed by darkness
World remains flat
Probably unlikely
Definitely maybe
Undecided

1st July, 2013
© 2003 Valerie Lynn

VALERIE LYNN WRITES, ONE by One

ONE by ONE

One by one
The ones I loved
Left me here
All alone to rot
In this mess
We call a world

29th June, 2013
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VALERIE LYNN WRITES, TWISTED



TWISTED

Forced to conquer the ultimate demon,
Driven by fault and sheer confusion.
Rejection from the outside world,
Left her feeling empty and alone.
Trapped in a dangerous state of mind,
Convincing others everything was fine.
Conflicting voices inside her head,
Induced the desire to witness death.
Submitting to their twisted game,
Intrigued by pain and eager to play.

14th June, 2013
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